I apologize ahead of time if this seems extremely disjointed and kind of all over the place. I've been writing this on my phone and working on it over the course of a few days, so my apologies in advance if it seems incoherent and rambling.
When I was growing up, there were few people I looked up to more than my older cousins Eric, Jon, Kate, and Dan. They lived about ten minutes away and were definitely an integral part of my life. Being able to spend time with any of them was always the highlight of my day, no matter what the day had brought.
Tuesday morning I got the news that Jon had died at the age of 38. I think that was the biggest shocker I've had in years. I've spent some time trying to put together the words to describe my wonderful cousin and what he meant to all of us, and I still feel that they'll be woefully inadequate to describe such an amazing, special human being.
Jon was always really laid back and relaxed. I think he was the only babysitter I wasn't a complete unholy terror to (sorry to you other 3). Jon definitely lived his life to the fullest, on his terms. I rarely saw him upset, and could always enjoy my time with him. He was easy to open up to, outgoing, and a great friend. I remember the night before Kate's wedding, the two of us hung out, having some whiskey and just talking until almost 4 in the morning. We definitely paid dearly for it the next day, but it was worth it and I wouldn't trade that time in for anything.
Most of all, I will remember just how much Jon cared. The last time I really got to spend time with him was Dan's wedding. He was still laid back, and still a blast just to be around. He was always positive when I was around him, and I'll miss that about him dearly.
I can't imagine the pain my cousins and my Aunt and Uncle are going through right now, I just wish they didn't have to feel it.
Jon - I love you very, very much. You were a great cousin and friend, and I will miss you dearly. No one's ever really gone as long as you remember them, and I can promise I'll never forget the good times we had together. I love you.
PS - I'll be sure to keep reminding Dan he worked for the Navy every time I see him
